The weather here in DC has been exceptionally strange this past week. Some days it has been a warm 75 degrees and the next stormy, cold, and rainy. I think this weather transition that is spring relates a lot to where I am and where I am going.
It seems like Mother Nature is trying to get out every bit of rain she can before summer comes. I can relate. I feel like I am trying to squeeze every bit of knowledge and every opportunity I can out of my current position before I move on. It's like growing pains: I want to move on, I want to be ready, but I am not sure I am yet. Maybe you never really know if you are ready until you jump in and try something new. Now, I understand I am gaining invaluable experience here. But the fact that I don't have a lot to believe in is beginning to weigh on me more and more every day. I understand it is a privilege to get paid for what you love to do. A mentor of mine told me recently that I need to work for 10 years and then I can do whatever the frick I want. After I regained my breath I prayed to God that it wouldn't be that long. Then I promised myself it wouldnt be.
As of right now I am not sure what my next step is. I am applying for developmental jobs in fields that I have worked in and am passionate about. I never thought that working and being an adult would be so hard. I guess I thought that after college everything just sorta fell into place. Nothing feels like its "in place". Being someone who knows how I feel about virtually everything, you can understand how difficult it is to not really know what I should be doing or what next step to take. But, the encouragement from my family and friends is really what is helping. Their belief in me is amazing to me and their support is really all I need :)
